This post is a little different than most of my other posts, but seemed worth sharing. Today my daughter started summer camp. Two months ago, when I was signing her up for this, I could not have been more excited. I mean seriously, this camp sounded amazing. Swimming, crafts, sports and much more. Over the last couple of weeks, I have had a few nervous thoughts, but just figured that was because it was something new. My daughter is almost 4 years old and is a very independent little girl. She went to preschool last year and did great. If I think about all this, I have no reason to worry right? Well today as we were leaving the house, I felt this wave of anxiety come over me and all my worrisome thoughts came flooding back. Now it would seem that I would have lots of strategies to deal with this because after all I am a therapist. I mean seriously, I went to school for all those years to help people deal with anxiety and now I find myself sitting in my car with shaky hands telling myself to take slow deep breaths. I am happy to reports that this helped. 🙂 Ok so why am I sharing all this you ask? Well it seemed like a good way to reach out to all the other parents out there and say, guess what…you are not alone. It is totally normal to feel this way when your child starts something new.
On a side note, I was also worried that Avery would be nervous about me leaving her at camp. Turns out I was wrong about this too. She ran in, put down her stuff, met her counselor and got up at the table and started building with blocks with the other kids. I went to kiss her goodbye and she simply said goodbye mommy, have a good day at work! How is it that my 4 year old is braver than I am? I think I need to take some lessons from her in this department. As I stood and watched her play for a minute, I had this huge lump in my throat and felt a bit like I might throw up. As I took a few more deep breaths I got to thinking…I guess this is just another great example of something that I am learning as I go. Being a mommy is by far the toughest job I have ever had. Part of being a mommy for me will be dealing with my own fears so that I can give my kids room to grow and the confidence to leave the nest… even if it terrifies me. Good thing I am working today otherwise this may have been a day when a morning cocktail was in order 🙂 Thanks for reading and happy Monday!
What have your experiences been with letting your kids go to camp and school? Did you feel nervous? I would love to hear about other people’s experiences!